Ted Haggard: Should I Trust My Pastor?
November 11 06 16 comments
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(From Wikipedia) Ted Arthur Haggard is a former American evangelical preacher. Known as “Pastor Ted” to the congregation he once served, he is the founder and former pastor of the New Life Church in Colorado Springs, Colorado, and was a founder of the Association of Life-Giving Churches. On November 3, 2006, he resigned his leadership of the National Association of Evangelicals and stepped aside as pastor of his church because of allegations by former prostitute and masseur Mike Jones that Haggard engaged in sex with him for three years and used methamphetamine. Jones said he had only recently learned of Haggard’s true identity and explained his reasons for coming forward by saying, “It made me angry that here’s someone preaching about gay marriage and going behind the scenes having gay sex”. Haggard at first claimed he had never met his accuser and in a television interview said “I am steady with my wife. I’m faithful to my wife”. On November 5, in a statement, Haggard said, “The fact is I am guilty of sexual immorality. I am a deceiver and a liar. There is a part of my life that is so repulsive and dark that I have been warring about it for my entire life. ... The accusations that have been leveled against me are not all true but enough of them are true. ... The things that I did opened the door to additional allegations.”
Now, as a follower of Christ, this kind of stuff makes me very angry.
“Great!” I say to myself, “another among the ranks of Christian leaders who give a reason for the American public to punch Jesus and the church in the eye.” I get very angry because I feel protective about God’s reputation in our city and in my neighborhood. Personally I’d like to go out to Colorado and punch Ted Haggard in the eye.
As a pastor, it makes me angry. It’s hard enough to be a pastor—with good reason. This is not the first, nor will it be the last guy in ministry that falls under temptation and is turned into a pop culture icon for mocking the church and easily handing over ammunition to people who already hate Christians and distrust the church. Being a pastor ranks among the top mistrusted professions in the country—right up there with used-car salesmen, politicians, insurance adjusters and lawyers (my condolences to these professionals). So when a guy who, “in the name of Jesus” has been preaching against homosexuals and gay marriage gets caught with his pants down…this kind of press does not help me out in any way. It makes my job harder. In a community where we are seeking to love more than move people toward behavior modification the stereotypical Amercian Pastor Scandal is crushing. It hurts our honest ministry to real people who are hurting and truly need jesus.
I know that such events raise the question, “Should we trust our pastors?”
It’s a very fair question—but one that can be rooted in misunderstanding the gospel. Because the answer to that question is both “no” and “yes” because of the gospel. I want to let you in on my life as a pastor and how we deal with this. I hope this helps clarify the gospel and I’ll explain how we submit to one another in our leadership roles so that the gospel is worked out in liberti leadership.
First: I’m a sinner.
That statement is not just preacher talk. I really mean it. I am a sinner. The reality of being a pastor is that I deal with my own heart all the time. The longer I’m a Christian, I realize more and more that my sin is not just what comes up on the surface—anger, white lies, boasting, etc. Rather, *I’m becoming more aware of just how deeply embedded and hidden my sin goes*—my sin would encourage me to be the center of the universe, to make God my slave, and treat others around me into my loyal subjects. God has recently been showing me a heart of arrogance, pride, and selfishness. You’d think that after 15 years as a Christian, I’d get through most of my sin. Not so—Jesus gently keeps showing me more and more how much I need him. Don’t believe that your leaders are not sinners who need Jesus every bit as much as you do. There is no magic wand. When I became a pastor, I did not suddenly become less of a sinner, or need Jesus any less. If anything, being a pastor has only pushed me to see how much MORE I need him.
Second: the American church really doesn’t understand sin and redemption very well…
The church looks at the outside. And in doing so, we don’t play by God’s definition of sin. We cheapen and do violence to the gospel when we make up a subset of rules that if a person seems to have it together on the outside, everything must be OK on the inside. That is because we functionally believe that God really is just about nice people. Therefore the gospel must be about making us nice. But in the New Testament, we read about how Jesus hated the “nice” religious establishment for this very reason. He routinely had the hardest and most difficult things to say to the nice moral leaders of the day. We don’t define the most Christian people at our church by the nicest or the ones who seem to have it together. No: we say that good leaders are those who love well, repent well, and don’t make everything about themselves.
At liberti, we do take sin very seriously.
As leaders we are just as susceptible to sin as Ted Haggard, we are just as susceptible to failing and totally falling on our face as anyone. There is nothing that sets me apart from you that keeps me from falling into a life filled with deceit and sin. So as leaders, all your pastors and elders are accountable to one another. This is how we stay out of trouble, this is how we keep each other from falling, this is how we try, to the best of our abilities, to look sin in the face and fight it as hard as we possibly can. We know that we do not exist in a vacuum and left to our own desires we would sin, fail, and destroy gods church. I think it even gets harder to avoid temptation when you get into a role where you are singled out as a leader. We meet in weekly or bi-weekly groups with one another to ask each other hard questions. We’re accountable to one another. We also submit ourselves as a whole to other churches and other pastors outside of liberti. That’s why we are in a denomination—a community of churches trying to live out the life of Jesus as communities in community. We are rightly suspicious of our own hearts as leaders and therefore really believe in accountability in community.
At liberti, we also take redemption seriously.
As the elders and pastors of the church take vows to lead and love the congregation, we also do so by grace. We are relying on God’s power working in imperfect people to lead, to love, and to repent well. We are very aware of our weaknesses and faults. This is why we talk about our problems in the pulpit. Not because we want to wash our dirty laundry before you—in fact, we are careful to be balanced in not burdening the congregation with our sins, but because we want to lead you as the chief repenters of liberti—both modeling repentance and pointing the church to Jesus, not ourselves. AND I pray that in the process, we are becoming a community that is not the cult of personality that is popular in American Christendom, but a Jesus community. He is the one to trust, not me.
Pray for Ted, Pray for Me, Pray for liberti
So my own anger at Ted Haggard’s moral failure reveals how I don’t drink deeply enough at the gospel of grace. Surely this man needs my prayers, not my pity nor my self-righteous anger. It humbles me because I’m a sinner just like him. It makes me all the more thankful for God’s grace and protection for our leadership. Please pray for your pastors and elders regularly, hold us as both shepherds worthy of your respect but not idolizing, and hold us up in prayer to God as weak sheep who are weak and need Jesus’ mercy and grace.
November 12 06 Susan Bertolino wrote:
Okay, you knew I couldn’t leave this one alone. .I won’t list my reasons for issues with Ted Haggard: some coincide with yours; some simply poiint to my impatience with Christians who are obsessed with law and rules and everyone else’s business without considering their own shortcomings. Yes, I too am guilty of such, no doubt about it. Christians are both ultra nice and terribly brutal: I think you are right when you say that it boils down to the inability to truly wrestle with the horror of sin.
There is a band called 16th Horsepower—hard to call them Christian music only because many Christians won’t listen to them; their audience is largely secular. But they sing of sin, betrayal, depravity—there is some fire and brimstone, but it’s more an exhortation to recognize how easy it is to fall into sin’s clutches. They have an honesty that I often miss in most Christian music which is why I almost never listen to it. What’s my point? If we make gods of our pastors, then we deserve the fallout when they sin and fall short of the glory of God. We are all weak, and there is such a thing as charisma. Do we obey the leader because he is hip, cool and speaks to where I’m at in a given time? Is he a dynamic preacher? I never heard Ted Haggard preach, but I am assuming he had some of those gifts. My guess is that he was a sincere Christian who let early power and human fawning over him go to his head. It is way too easy for that to happen in a celebrity obsessed culture.
I’ll finish with this one, and this isn’t to you, Geoff, but a general comment. When we say: Sin, sin, sin, do we know what we are talking about? We think in gradations: adultery—bad, smoking—not so bad. Murder—bad, name calling—well, don’t we all do it? And I’ve seen people judged so horribly because they committed one sin but not the other. Aren’t they all equally repugnant to God? When we say we are all weak, are those words or fact? Ted Haggard did what any of us are capable of doing. He just got caught with the cameras on. But to God, the camera is never off; it’s so easy to forget that.
Thank you for this.